How to protect your heart from the false light
“Instead of feeling like a victim, I realized my spirit was trying to teach me wisdom and discernment.”
Opening up spiritually can be an exciting quest for the soul when one starts the awakening journey. One of the most important steps in anyone’s awakening and life journey is learning discernment. When opening up spiritually one becomes excited but at times can be naive.
I myself experienced this level of naivety when I awakened almost 5 years ago.
It’s like the Fool’s card in the tarot deck. Eager to explore and take on the world but just because everyone is waving a sign of love and light it does not necessarily mean they have pure intentions.
I learned this the hard way with a few spiritual predators at the start of my journey.
A man in his 50’s who appeared to be wise and kind said he could perform miracles for people. He preyed on women claiming he can perform angel wing surgery. He said his healing would help me release my trauma and I would be able to see and use my angel wings once again, once his spiritual surgery was done.
After he put me in a hypnotized trance state and worked on me he asked if I would like help downloading information from the Akashic records. I asked him how? A red flag alarm started going off and I had an uneasy feeling . He said I would have to get on top of him and lay on his stomach. I was not going to fall for that one. What shook me most was my inability to use my voice in that moment. It felt like I was a child trying to speak up. My voice was shaking when I managed to utter the words “No , I am going to leave now. “
I drove away feeling violated in some way. It felt like something was taken from me. Like a part of my heart and innocence was bruised.
How could I be so stupid to fall for it? I had that question on loop in my head for weeks. I was even too embarrassed to tell my best friend or anyone.
In a way writing this out now and sharing my journey is healing for me. I am alchemizing the experience into my own wisdom and medicine I can share with others. I also want you to know you are not alone if someone has preyed on your innocence and open heart. I am here to cheerlead you on and tell you to keep going. Don’t stop your quest to discover the truth and connection with the divine.
Give yourself time to heal. This experience happened four years ago and I finally feel like I can share it with others. It no longer holds any power over me.
How could someone take advantage of someone who just wanted to connect with her angelic self?
It was not my first test. It was the start of many more.
Instead of feeling like a victim, I realized my spirit was trying to teach me wisdom and discernment. As I was driving away I understood why many people never leave the Christian church to explore their true divine nature. It’s scary and heartbreaking when you learn there are people acting like healers but really are consumed by their own agenda and darkness. It can feel much safer to stay in your comfort zone than to explore new realities and transcend your own ego-mind.
Part of the spiritual journey at the higher levels is learning to trust your own intuition, knowing, and discernment.
Who has pure intent and who is masking around as false light.
Ask yourself:
Is this person pushing their agenda on me?
Is the energy aggressive?
Are they claiming they can heal me, on their power alone?
Am I giving my power away to them?
Have they asked me to hand over my free will?
Do they elevate themselves above you and claim to have no ego?
Give them a scan: does their life seem balanced and healthy overall?
Do they have a lot of problems financially, physically, health issues, relationships, or emotionally?
Are they emotionally balanced?
Do they have neutrality around their work and helping you or do they need credit for your healing process?
Have they told you they are the only way to give you access to high levels of knowledge, healing, and information?
Are they pushy, asking you if you want a healing, before you even ask or get curious yourself?
If the answer is yes to any of the above they are most likely serving their own agenda.
I also believe in self-responsibility. So I can be in my own power and not in victim consciousness.
Was there a part of me that wanted a quick fix and solution to my problem?
Do I have a longing for this person to love me, be my friend or teacher even though something doesn’t feel right in my gut?
I’ve come to learn predators are everywhere not just with spirituality it also goes with life in general.
There are people out there who are in service to themselves and want to take advantage of others to gain some sense of power because they themselves deep down need to feed on the energy of others to feel anything.
For example pyramid schemes, scam callers, politics, and the news. Pushing an agenda that does not have pure intentions onto people who are looking for an outside solution to their problems.
One must learn discernment and learn to trust themselves.
So in a way, I am thankful for these lessons they acted as strengthening for me to know I can trust my own intuition and my spidy-senses are spot on today.
Even though I have an open heart there is still an edge to me. I have an open mind but I question everything, both in the physical and the spiritual world.
That is how you can protect your heart and empower yourself yet also remain open to trying new things.
I used to hold shame and embarrassment around these experiences but I know sharing my story will help others on their quest for self-realization.
